I know that my redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand on the earth. And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God; I myself will see him with my own eyes - I, and not another. How my heart yearns within me!
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Over the course of the last year, we have all faced some level of disappointment and loss. While some of us have grieved many missed expectations for what we hoped 2020 would bring, others of us have had to grieve more devastating losses, like those of family members and jobs. I don’t believe it’s a stretch to say that no one has come out of this last year of the pandemic, unscathed.
For most of us, when we or our loved ones are on the receiving end of disappointment and devastating loss, the question that permeates our minds, bodies, and souls is simply: “WHY?” - Why did I have to lose my job? Why did my mom deserve to have the cancer diagnosis? Why did my coworker get a promotion while I was passed up? Why is there so much suffering, hurt, and pain around me and in our world? Why, if Jesus loves me, did He allow this to happen?
The summer after my senior year of high school was the very first time I began asking these types of questions. I pointed my questions directly at the person I held most responsible for my disappointment, God. It was through my honest, vulnerable, and mostly angry questions that the Holy Spirit led me to the book of Job. In this book, we read that Job is a righteous man who honors, obeys, and loves God with all he’s got. However, he quickly loses everything; his family, his property, and even his health. The only advice he’s given by his “friends” is that God must be punishing him for being unrighteous.
In Job 19:25-27, we read Job’s insightful response to his friends’ damaging theology. Job knows God. He’s experienced God. Job knows that God is good and doesn’t bring evil on His people. Job’s “heart yearns within him” to see God because he knows in his mind, body, and soul that God is the God of redemption and not vindictiveness and evil. And that is a rallying cry, I believe, that all followers of Jesus need to hold on to tightly, through every season of life!
Junior High Pastor
Yorba Linda Campus